I’m having a real introspective time right now in my life. What am I doing? Why am I doing it? Is this the right place to be doing it…for the right price…for the right reasons?
I just don’t know anymore. I read a quote the other day that got me thinking about this: “They say the more you understand what inspires you, the more readily you can put yourself in it’s path.”
The issue is that I am finding a lot inspirational right now, but I’m exhausted with trying to get ready to move back to Charleston and part of me just can’t decide which direction to go. I guess it’s good that I have too much inspiration and people around me stirring my soul, but there is also a loud clamoring of all of those ideas that I can’t hear my own voice over.
First things first, I have to get organized this weekend with our moving plans; get more boxes and tape and get more things locked down. Once I have a solid plan there, I will be able to think of other things. Second, I have to start thinking more about what I need to do for a living – SERIOUSLY. I have been applying to things here and there, letting people know what I’m capable of and acquiring clients sporadically. But sporadic work does not a living make.
But beyond the professional realm, I need to make a good list of things I want to accomplish personally too. I want to learn Gaelic. I want to visit Ireland. I want to run a 5K (actually run the whole thing…not walk). I want to make healthier, more fun decisions…and make a difference in someone’s life. I want to get back in touch with the Man Upstairs. I want to actually be content with who I am consistently, like who I’m becoming and live regret-free.
I don’t really have regrets now…and I’m not unhappy. I just feel like there is another level of accomplishment I haven’t quite reached yet that I know is just outside of my current grasp. I need to be an inspiration to someone else. I just have to take the time to sit down and map it out, with purpose. I need to act and react with purpose. I need to exist with purpose. I need to choose, live, love and work with purpose. Starting now.
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Now, the way to get this all in order is right there in your “I wants”. Begin with the Man Upstairs … they only way to get this in order;and I am going through the same thing; which just says to me He is up to something, is to inquire of The Man!
Proverbs 16:3 says …
Roll your works upon the LORD, commit and trust them wholly to Him; He will cause your thoughts to become agreeable to His will (and plan) and so shall your plans be established and succeed.
I have this on a sticky, in my face, everyday. I find that when I diligently share with God my plan that He makes it work like a breeze.
So thanks for hitting me, kindly, between the eyes this morning. I need to get me back in line so that the rest will fall into place.
Blessings my friend.
Andrea